There was a point a few months ago when it felt like Darby was supposed to stay a newborn for some time. I think it feels that way because you have a need to cope and enjoy everything about that time in your babies lives. But it passes. Much too quickly. You remember they only have one year of babyhood. And YOU only have one year to enjoy them being a baby. And suddenly they're almost a year old. Three more months and we'll be celebrating a life that has been here for an entire year. But mentally you just gave birth to her like… a few days ago… right? and how did she even come, because your first born was just a baby like a few months ago… right? When did he stop being so cute and start acting like a young teenager? Using the term, "That's not cool enough for me." and only being interested in things young dudes are supposed to like. But anyway I'm supposed to be talking about this actual, physical baby of mine right now. It doesn't even seem like she's supposed to be real sometimes like,
Oh thats was just a long dream I had last night.
Not only is she real but she's as real as it gets. She laughs hard, jabbers too much, gets into anything and everything. Throws huge objects off shelves, or puts unsafe things in her eyes and mouth. To music she dances and sings, drums with her hands banging against the table, or falls into a deep coma sleep. Point being, she wants me to know music makes her feel good(join the club Darby).
She MUST have her outdoor time. If it's getting later in the day and I still haven't taken her to sit in the grass or gone on a long walk with her she gets a little fussy, trying to tell me, "OK mom, I've had enough of this indoor crap, why don't you take me where I like." Silly mom doesn't know these things. But I'm figuring it out. Slowly. So, these are the kinds of small things moms spend so much time learning and then after years of growing up you wonder how your mom knows so much about who you are, almost more than you know yourself!
Darby, you're such a light in my life. I know it seems like it's taking forever to grow up and learn to do things like brother does but that same amount of time will pass before you in only a moment once you're older. And you'll hate it. But it will make you want to cherish and remember because it will make you realize in the end all you'll really have are the memories.